I’m publishing this blog post now after my baby boy is safely here but I tried to write down my thoughts and feelings as and when I felt them while pregnant. It feels strange to read it back because it already feels like a lifetime ago. I wasn’t sure whether to post it but I’mContinue reading “Pregnancy After Loss”
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Pregnancy After Loss: A Poem
I have a whole blog post ready to come about my pregnancy experience with Reuben but for now here is a poem I wrote in honour of Baby Loss Awareness Week 2021. Pregnancy After Loss It’s a marathon, an endurance test It’s expecting the worst while hoping for the best It’s repeated toilet trips prayingContinue reading “Pregnancy After Loss: A Poem”
Sowing Seeds of Hope
To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow. Audrey Hepburn Sam and I have been very busy in the garden the last week or so. When we moved into our house last Summer there were lots of beautiful plants in the garden that we had no idea what to do with! We did aContinue reading “Sowing Seeds of Hope”
Another Mothers’ Day without Etta
It’s hard to not compare this year with last year… the last week before lockdown began and here we are still inside our houses. A year since we scattered Etta’s ashes and have hardly had chance to go back to visit. I don’t think I would have believed anyone if they had told me whatContinue reading “Another Mothers’ Day without Etta”
Etta’s Funeral
A year ago today, we celebrated Etta’s life in Cheltenham surrounded by family and friends. I don’t take that for granted now. Sam’s brother Tom led the service for us and there will never be the words to thank him. Finding the words at a child’s funeral must be so difficult, let alone your ownContinue reading “Etta’s Funeral”
Thank You!
Thank you for helping us make the world better for Etta ❤️🌍 In a year where fundraising has been difficult, you’ve really dug deep and supported 2 charities that are very close to our hearts: The Grand Appeal and Sands United FC Salisbury. We are very grateful- your donations will make a huge difference toContinue reading “Thank You!”
Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 23
Today’s kind act is for two very deserving mums who both lost their little boys recently. It’s heartbreaking enough for your child to die, let alone during a global pandemic so I wanted to give them a few little gifts to show they’re not alone. I read ‘The Baby Loss Guide’ while on holiday afterContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 23”
Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 13
Today’s kind act was donating a bereavement book package to Ezzie’s pre-school. When I spoke to Ezzie’s keyworker, she hadn’t heard of Winston’s Wish and they didn’t have any specific resources on grief. So I thought instead of telling them about the books on the Winstons Wish and Child Bereavement UK websites, I would buyContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 13”
Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 1
Today we were kind to ourselves. After all- you can’t pour from an empty cup. I’ve spent all day crying but so overwhelmed by other people’s love and kindness for us. And not just today- but every day since Etta’s diagnosis. So today’s act of kindness is from you. Thank you. Thank you to thoseContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 1”
How do you parent a dead child?
Imagine the scene… You get in the car from the hospital and see the car seat you carefully installed. You arrive to freshly washed baby clothes in the drawers and a crib by the bed. You look down and see a rounded stomach and milk leaking through your top. You find gifts and cards welcomingContinue reading “How do you parent a dead child?”
Better for Etta 