Pregnancy After Loss: A Poem

I have a whole blog post ready to come about my pregnancy experience with Reuben but for now here is a poem I wrote in honour of Baby Loss Awareness Week 2021. Pregnancy After Loss It’s a marathon, an endurance test It’s expecting the worst while hoping for the best It’s repeated toilet trips prayingContinue reading “Pregnancy After Loss: A Poem”

Sowing Seeds of Hope

To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow. Audrey Hepburn Sam and I have been very busy in the garden the last week or so. When we moved into our house last Summer there were lots of beautiful plants in the garden that we had no idea what to do with! We did aContinue reading “Sowing Seeds of Hope”

Another Mothers’ Day without Etta

It’s hard to not compare this year with last year… the last week before lockdown began and here we are still inside our houses. A year since we scattered Etta’s ashes and have hardly had chance to go back to visit. I don’t think I would have believed anyone if they had told me whatContinue reading “Another Mothers’ Day without Etta”

Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 23

Today’s kind act is for two very deserving mums who both lost their little boys recently. It’s heartbreaking enough for your child to die, let alone during a global pandemic so I wanted to give them a few little gifts to show they’re not alone. I read ‘The Baby Loss Guide’ while on holiday afterContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 23”

Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 18

This morning, Sam and I started writing Christmas cards and it got me thinking about all the thank you cards we wrote after Etta died- to all the doctors, nurses and midwives that had been involved in her care. I realised there were lots of other people I wanted to thank too. So today’s kindContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 18”

Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 14

Today’s kind act is a bit of a cheat because we’ve been busy today visiting Father Christmas!! 🎅🏻🎄 However, today is all about volunteering. I could talk all day about how great volunteering is- for you, for the people you help, for the community. There have been lots of studies to suggest that volunteering improvesContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 14”

Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 12

We were supposed to be something different today but instead I wanted to come on and shout about the BIG GIVE! There is less than 24 hours to go to donate to a charity of your choice and have your donation doubled as part of the Big Give Christmas Challenge. I fell down a bitContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 12”

Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 7

Today’s kind act was perfect for a chilly day like today. As a family, we got wrapped up in our woolly hats and scarves (and my favourite snuggly woolly coatigan) to take part in #winterwoollyweds for Child Bereavement UK. All you need to do is get wrapped up and donate as little or as muchContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 7”

Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 1

Today we were kind to ourselves. After all- you can’t pour from an empty cup. I’ve spent all day crying but so overwhelmed by other people’s love and kindness for us. And not just today- but every day since Etta’s diagnosis. So today’s act of kindness is from you. Thank you. Thank you to thoseContinue reading “Better for Etta Kindness Campaign Day 1”

How do you parent a dead child?

Imagine the scene… You get in the car from the hospital and see the car seat you carefully installed. You arrive to freshly washed baby clothes in the drawers and a crib by the bed. You look down and see a rounded stomach and milk leaking through your top. You find gifts and cards welcomingContinue reading “How do you parent a dead child?”